So I have disappeared off the map for a couple of months...

I passed everything with flying colors, except Lit 1 in which I barely survived with a 76 iirc, but everything else was A's and B's. Pushed up my (shitty) GPA up almost a whole letter grade. But, alas it wasn't enough for me to get out of warning. Er, the academic warning. I cleared the semester GPA requirement of a 2.2 with almost a 2.9 or something. Had it not been for that C D: ... but I went ahead and took the Math class with the prof recommended to me at the community college.

Gotta say, it was easy, yet it was hard. Easy because I actually understood it... hard because it was every day and there would be a test every week. I just wish that I had found my old dinosaur of a graphing calculator earlier; would've helped. However, the sweet thing about it is that dropped the lowest grade and count the final twice. Now, you know that I am quite terrible at math, once you through random letters of alphabet in there. My first test... well let's just say that I didn't think I could score that low. Even with the extra credit tacked on (which has saved me on the other 3 tests). Long story short, I actually got a C. Fantastic.

Now, the financial situation. For some time, we weren't hit as much up until maybe two months ago. Mom owes a lot of student loans to where they are taking a big chunk of her paycheck (which is already messed up by taxes; she makes about $~4,100 before); on top of that, she still has to take her classes up at the only school offering her classes... she has to pay 60% of her tuition the first month and then the rest the second month. Now, combine this with me preparing to move on campus and such (the rent for the dorm, other shit) and you know, I wasn't eligible for aide because of my GPA was still in the tank... everyone was stressed out, to put it lightly.
Until I had to write the letter of appeal to the financial aid department. For some reason it took me forever to write the letter; it wasn't pride or anything, it was that there was a possibility that I might not get the monies. I did though, which paid for the dorm for the whole semester, other stuff... and I think I got grandfathered in on the dining meal plan so I don't have to pay for that. Which is great considering that it's

• Mandatory for Freshman AND Sophomores living on campus (that last part added recently and I didn't even know this till the bill showed up.
• Almost $1000 for two semesters of food... and if you don't use it all up, kiss it goodbye.
• I don't eat that much...

Either way, we don't have anything to worry about except, putting food in the fridge and maybe gas. That's about what it boils to really. Books and stuff is taken care of by the GI Bill. I don't think I'm gonna sell them back, except the Lit 2 class. I'm keeping my JP books. So... yeah.

Anyway, I moved in, did Band Camp... I felt like I was stuck in the middle for the first couple of days. It's just how I work; I just sit back and get the general feel of people, specifically the new kids. I must say, we actually got guys that are really attractive. XD

One, I want to tell him to put a damn shirt on, since he wears his undershirt, but on the other hand... *makes claw motion*. Like, at our sectional dinner, when we did vets on stage, I was asked who was the cutest/hottest guy in band, and I said him... everyone was like "ohhhh snap!" I probably would've said it sooner or later. And a little later on when we were like talking and BSing, he was like flexing his pecs to WE... and we're all hysterical and laughing.

And there is M-chan*. I've never seen such a huge flirt in my life really. The first night of rehearsal he introduced himself to all the girls in the section (and there are a lot of us). He looks to be like one of those guys who could be a massive jerk, but color me surprised. But he is really cute and such a sweetie. <3

Ok, back to business. So there was a lot of people, so much that there had to be cuts. This freaked everyone out. I didn't worry much about it the whole time, that is until I was a mirror for both shows. I tried saving face the first time, but that didn't work. The second time I half-expected it. I didn't mind the second time anyway because I was mirroring M-chan. But, the final list appeared about a few hours after camp ended.

Didn't make it.

At first, I didn't know what to feel. Well, I felt pain from doing drill and all of that -- my arches and my calves, LEGS just fell apart to where I just couldn't move at all, literally. V-kun called me to see where I was, but at that point, I pretty much didn't care. So, about maybe an hour after that, I just cried. I didn't feel like it was a waste of my time doing it or anything, it was just I was in sheer, legitimate pain.

Yesterday, I went back home to replenish supplies, and got some consolation. I honestly needed them from my parents; it would've seem hollow coming from others that I barely knew. Anyway, I got my hair done, got food (bbq to be precise), and went back. Really, I didn't want to go to the banquet, but I did anyway. Earlier in the day, I composed a small thank-you email. I didn't eat the dinner because... well it didn't look that appetizing, plus I'm pretty sure that I'm garlic intolerant somehow. Like I get this rash on my chest and I can't wear any of my uh, cute shirts. <_<

At the end of it though, when I was leaving, M-chan was talking to me, and then he hugged me. It made my night really, I'll just say that much.

I can look at it as this way, I won't get any vicious heat rashes or get darker than I already am, and I actually tanned evenly, sans my face. That can't be helped. I'm not too out of shape as I thought I was. I always said that I needed more time to concentrate on writing, now that I already sort of started on Nightingale Virus along with Epsilon. It doesn't sound as demanding, trust me. It stings a little, but I can deal with it. The difference is that I can just go to the field on Saturday mornings or whatever, and visit.

Speaking of Saturday, I got the reply for my email I sent earlier, and I get my monies refunded for the shoes and gloves I paid for. And then the part about tickets (which I didn't order). If I had, I would've received them. If I didn't, the athletic department said that they will place an order for me, and if I didn't want tickets, contact them immediately. Is this what I think it means? Free tickets to the games?! And there are a lot of home games! If this is the case, then that's a great consolation prize. I... that floored me honestly.

Ah, but what about my 21st b-day? No, I didn't drink. I still haven't drunk anything yet. But I got a Blackberry Curve (8330). At first, I thought about getting the Instinct, but word of mouth said that one wrong sling of the phone or press too hard, the screen would go out and you couldn't use your phone, dead pixels... so I ended up getting the 'berry. It is a fantastic phone. Literally, it's like upgrading from a hoopty to a R8; it does everything, great camera (with flash!), video recorder, voice recorder, mp3 ringtones in which I have a shit-ton, and a shit-ton more to go... that's all I got. But I did ask for a new phone because the hoopty phone was just... so hoopty. Like I was so ashamed of my phone. My general ringer is set to the symphonic part to The Go Around by INF... excellent instrumental album if I say so myself.

So that's about it. I moved my creative shit over to Dreamwidth, courtesy of emeraldstag . I got invite codes somewhere if they hadn't expired or anything. So, they'll get crossposted if you want to take a gander. I do like the layout and the colors. <3

Ok... so I got my braces off. It was a lot easier than I thought, but it just involved a lot of brushing. For some reason, it took me back, because it just felt like I was getting my teeth pulled or something. Not the lovely-ist thoughs, but that's what I really went to the dentist for. =\

My teeth looks so nice now that it's free of metal and it looks straight for the first time in ever. Growing up, my teeth were crooked and wonderful stuff... hell, if the dentist hadn't intervened, I probably still have my baby teeth. It had roots about the length of my nail, meaning that it would most likely not come out at all.

Of course, I have to wear a retainer. Here's the thing though. My mouth goes WTF FOREIGN OBJECT and I start to... salivate. It's not bad now, but at first, I had to constantly try not to... well, it's nasty. On top of that, it creates a severe lisp. I mean I sound like a deaf person, and my words are just slurred to hell. So, I pretty much solved that solution; just take off the top retainer. I still have one, but it's minute. I get to take them off anyway to drink, eat, and sleep. It's just weird [and anti-climatic] to suddenly feel my teeth again though. I can offically go back to eating all the things I used to... I did it with braces and somehow I only broke 2 brackets and a band. Go me?

I watched some of the new vids for GOLD, and so far I'm impressed. A few songs were like 'meh' but, for the most part, they're good. Now I can't wait for the GST and gamerips. Vanessa is one of those songs... The vid is kinda... wtfish. It's basically a portait with a bish (well, not a bish-bish, but with a hint of man) and I guess he is expressing his moods like >=[ and such. I'm guessing it's from Castlevania: Portiat of Ruin because at the end, about half of the picture is destroyed. I like the song though. And, along with the majority, WTF'd when Faxx is the OMES. Yeah. =|

Once again, I tried Endless Mode, this time on Supernova. I only got through 19 before I quit at... I wanna say Fly Away. I wanted to reach 20. I only got a 482 combo... I can't seem to pass the 500 mark anymore. There was twice that I reached the 1,000 mark, so of course I was still far off.

I like how the weather goes into Spring mode like immediately. It's been like 70s for the past 3 weeks, and before that it was like 40. Now I'm sort of confused. I'm telling ya, there's going to be a freak storm of the epic kind sometime soon. I can feel it. Bring it up here, and people'll say 'OMG 93'. Anyway, I also have a feeling we'll get a lot more severe weather, seeing that it's getting humid and there's the random front from hell around the corner. In fact, we're supposed to get some wicked storms tomorrow... which is Thursdays and I don't have class that day (go me!).

Speaking of, I pretty much had to debate whether or not I was going to drop math class. I've skipped since my first exam, and because of that I missed my second exam. Now, I thought 'ok, i'm so droppping this' until I re-read the syllabus. Basically. he'll take the 3 highest scores and average them twice with a different formula, and if you missed a exam, the final serves as a makeup. So, I pretty much failed the 1st, the final will be my makeup for my 2nd, and we have 2 more to go. If I pass with flying colors on all 3 of them, I have nothing to worry. The thing is, my disipline sucks because it's at 5 in the afternoon, and I have a 2 hour break before it on Mondays and Fridays.

I just need to raise my GPA to 2.2 or else I'm gonna in some serious trouble. I mean 'suspended for a full semester' type. Since I did the GAP, I have a 1.87 so, it doesn't take much to raise that I hope. Besides, I signed up for priority registration since I plan on being in band next semester (lots of pre-game.) Ah, the perks of being in band. It's like registering a full month before everyone does, which is awesome because all of the classes aren't full and you have a buffet. Being first in line so you can get that juicy steak you've been eyeing on since you walked in the door.

...hmm, steak. *drools*